Clio's Web Journal Page 4

Clio's Web Journal
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The Muse Clio

12-23-01:(8:41 am CST) Had trouble sleeping, so I got up about 4 am when I couldn't take staring at the ceiling anymore. I decided I'd get up and get a head start on the days baking. Which is probably going to take all day. I've already made some pumpkin biscuits, which had yeast in them so I had to let the dough rise several times. They're very good. We're giving some of them away to a friend of ours as a gift along with some other stuff. I might make some more later if they are a hit with the rest of the family.

I'm going to bake a pumpkin bread for the neighbors across the street next. Then, I'm going to bake some cookies, gingerbread and sugar. Then my dad is wanting some fudge so my mom and I found this easy recipe for it that we've used before that's made using Eagle Brand milk. My mom wants me to make some brownies too. Probably for tonight. My niece and nephew are coming over to open presents and she's trying to figure out some snacks to serve. I'm going to be baking all day today. Reading slash to relax in the between times, while waiting for stuff to get taken out of the oven. What's better than that to help relax, I ask you?

So busy day today. Got more to do tomorrow. I've got that pear pie I mentioned to bake and then I'm making a pumpkin trifle. Catching onto the pumpkin theme yet? I'm still trying to get rid of the stuff. I have no idea how long it'll last in the freezer before it starts heading towards freezer burn. So best to use as much of it as I can while it's still good and fresh.

I'm turning into Martha Fucking Stewart what with all this baking and crap. I'm starting to scare myself. Even more frightening I'm really good at it. Who the fuck knew? Not me. Just thought I'd drop a few lines down while I was taking a break. Get everything I need to do straight in my head. Hopefully, I'll be able to fit a shower in there somewhere today. I'll try. Maybe manage to change clothes before the kids get here tonight. I'm hoping anyway. Gotta get cracking so I'll end this and post it.

Michael Rosenbaum with hair!

12-22-01:(12:17 am CST) Have I mentioned Smallville has taken over my brain? I did. Good, just wanted to reiterate that. It's all Michael Rosenbaum's fault, he just had to be so good at playing Sexy Lexy. Now, I've got a crush on the guy. He's now one of my current tv boyfriends. Which is a really odd concept. I was on the Smallville forum a little while back and this topic of discussion popped up from somewhere. We were all jokingly remembering all those crushes we had on actors and characters they played on tv. Remembering our first tv boyfriends. Many, said oddly enough their first was John Schneider, Bo Duke of The Dukes of Hazzard. It's odd only because he plays the dad on Smallville. I guess that's part of what sent the whole topic onto past remembrances. I thought the 'tv boyfriend' thing was cute, so I adopted it.

Mine was either Bruce Boxleitner on Scarecrow and Mrs. King (I loved that show, still do) or Pierce Brosnan as Remington Steele. Can't remember which.

From the discussion we had seemed alot of people had those as kids, still do in a way. I definitely have a crush on Nick Lea, Krycek on the X-Files, and David Duchovny (duh! Mulder, same show). Lex is my current one. My mom mentioned the other day that she had a tv boyfriend when she was a kid too. I can't remember who she said it was, I'd never heard of him before. The name just escapes me, I'll have to ask her again. My grandmother even has one. She's started watching reruns of The Practice and just thinks that Dylan McDermott is the cutest thing she has ever seen. Just goes on and on about him. I mentioned the tv boyfriend thing to her and she totally got it and agreed that he was. Women just so get that concept. You don't even have to explain it to them. When I told my mom about BB and PB, she just popped out the name of hers. It was wild. So MR is becoming my current obsession. I am on several Smallville lists, I know unequivocally that I am not alone in this. It's weird, but sort of fun remembering crap from childhood.

Which by the way the other day, thanks to a conversation with my step-sister, got to thinking about toys I had when I was a kid. Then out of the blue a few days ago my grandmother calls and says that she found a whole set of Strawberry Shortcake dolls of mine. Asked did I want them. She wasn't going to throw them out, just wondered if I wanted them. I had been thinking about them just days before, so I naturally said yes. I started looking up on the Internet just what all dolls there were and what their names were, because I couldn't remember at all. When I was looking them up I found out those damn things are worth some money now. I mean shit, they just had sentimental value to me, now I find out they aren't cheap. I probably have like the first of second editions that they released. Which are the best ones. I had no idea those dolls that had been sitting around in a closet somewhere were worth anything more than the price of my memories. Of course, they aren't in their boxes which is more valuable. I played with the damn things, I can't even remember what their boxes looked like. I saw some pics of them in boxes while doing my research, still didn't ring any damn bells. I never tore up any toys I had as a kid though, I was always pretty good about that, so they are in good shape.

Carebears are worth something too. Did you know that? This stuff is like 20 years old now. I am getting so fucking old. I can feel it. Modern music mostly sucks to me already. I knew it was coming. I won't lament about when I felt the last of my old version of cool slipping away from me a while back. I realized I was still pretty cool, just not young anymore. I'm old and still cool. I'll hang onto that. I might need to later. I'm starting to think fondly of having kids and stable men are looking pretty good to me. I'm so fucked. I'm learning to cook too. Not just cook, but cook really well. I'm making shit from scratch. It turns out really good too. Sorry, started lamenting without realizing it. I'll stop now.

Christmas is three whole days away. My nephew's birthday was two days ago, we're celebrating it tomorrow. He's six, he isn't real aware of such things yet. He's still a little goofy. We just worry about it and hope he grows out of it. We've got most of our Christmas shopping done. Just some odds and ends to buy. I am the designated present wrapper, I'm good at it and enjoy doing it. Nuff said in my family. We mainly only wrap stuff for the kids now, the grown ups just give each other their presents whenever. No biggie for us.

Did you know that you can print coloring pages for kids off the net? I stumbled across that a while ago on the net. I was looking up something for the kids when I found that. Most kids love coloring books, I know I did when I was little, so I printed some up for the niece and nephew for Christmas. I did it once for my niece's birthday too. Gives them something quiet to do, which I'm sure their mother loves. It's pretty cool. You can find pages for just about any cartoon character you can think of. Sorry, it's the holidays. Making me think of my childhood.

I have become like the dessert maker of the house. I'm good with baked goods. I'm going to bake some cookies probably tomorrow night. Some pumpkin biscuits before Christmas. For Christmas dinner I'm going to be making a pumpkin trifle and a pear pie (think apple pie, using pears instead. I like pears). So I'm good of the baking. I see cooks on tv shows now and think, "I could make that". I have no doubt I could too. Which is weird. I used to hate to cook. Now I enjoy it in an odd way, takes me out of myself. Focus on the recipe and go with it. I made white hot chocolate from scratch tonight. As in not a mix, but milk, cream, and chocolate chips (white chocolate). I'm totally getting weird on the cooking thing. I still can't believe I'm good at it. Stuff turns out better than what I could buy in the stores. I might make some pumpkin bread for the neighbors too. I've still got frozen pumpkin left over from the ones I used for decoration around Halloween. I'm trying to get rid of it.

I finally managed to get my webpages updated, took me forever to do it. I've been busy for the past couple of weeks. This holiday season has been such a rush. Getting things done. I mentioned my quest to become a Winter Wonderland Bastard a few entries ago. The people in my neighborhood really know how to decorate. This is the neighborhood in our town that people come to drive through to see the pretty lights. The folks down on our end of the street have been pretty lax about it. I think we are inspiring them though. There are several houses decorated this year that weren't last year. I think we all need some cheer this year especially. I've already got some plans mapped out for next year. Gotta do that so you'll know what to snatch up during the after Christmas sales. Get the lights cheap. Need a game plan. I'm competitive when it comes to this sort of thing, so sue me.

I've realized something about myself lately. I'm sort of a fannish butterfly. I don't know if I've ever mentioned this before, but I'm getting the sinking suspicion that I am. I just flutter around to various fandoms. Whichever shiny new ones seem to catch my eye. I'll read anything once. I have some main fandoms that I stick to, but I'll give most things a shot if I think the guys in the pairing are at all attractive. I'm sad that way.

I'm sitting here watching Vampire$ on the Sci-Fi channel. Nice little holiday movie. Yeah, sure. Right. I just love that movie. It's the slashiness between Jack and the priest. I'm such a slash slut. The premium channels have been showing Demolition Man incessantly for months now. Sometimes it's on every damn day. I don't need to see Sly Stallone that much, trust me. Vampire$ went off, so I channel surfed, it's on right now. I even see slash between Dennis Leary and Benjamin Bratt's characters. Do you see how impossibly sad I am? I might need to attend some Slashaholics Anonymous meetings. I think I'll just stay in denial that this is an addiction. I'm happier that way and I still get to enjoy slash. Don't have to wean myself away or go through the nasty withdrawl symptoms. What would those be? I'm not sure I want to know. <g> It's late, I'm getting goofy. Who cares.

The X-Files. To painful to watch. I made a promise to stop, but my mom insisted on watching a show about two weeks ago. I was working on the computer here in the living room where she was watching it, so I had to endure it. I mainly tried to ignore it and fumed over how stupid Moronica still is. I almost liked her for about a second a few eps ago, she was only mildly annoying. I got over that. She's full on annoying now. Poor Robert Patrick, the guy has so much more talent than this. Used to be a fun show to watch, now it's downright painful. They should just shoot that damn show and put it out of it's misery. It's turned to such crap. I think I'm going into denial that the show continued after the 5th season. Except for the eps Arcadia, The Unnatural, and maybe Drive. Those were the only ones I really liked and they all happened in season 6. I so miss Mulder.

DD and the Tea are having another kid, by the way. I'm happy for them. Is it just me or does DD still have that look like he'd break and run if he knew could just figure out how. He looks like that in every picture I've ever seen of he and Tea. Whatever. Just an observation. I saw some pics of him from a premier of Oceans 11, which a friend told me was pretty good. I'll have to rent it when it comes out, even if I do have moral issues about 'The Pitt'. DD looked like crap, I must say. Still cute, but like he was having a really bad day. Nick Lea was there too. I've heard they either came together or were just both there. I'm not sure which is true. Nick looked pretty cute. Tired, but I think many of us are.

Before I go, bad weather is maybe headed our way where I live. They are real iffy on it. The meteorologists around here seem to really be going day by day with their predictions. They never know what's going to be on top of us until it is. This is why we had a really bad ass ice storm last year and pretty much no warning. Knocked out electricity for a county or two. I'm not sure how far it stretched really, we didn't have any electricity for 8 days where I live. The radio only provided so much info. It was fucking cold every day of that too. They know it's going to start dropping into the 20's as a low some time after Christmas, highs in the 30's or 40's. It's Texas that's pretty cold for here. My step-sister from Colorado came down here thinking it didn't really get cold here. After the first cold snap she realized it did. It's really humid here, which means it's a wet cold. As opposed to the dry cold she's used to. Totally different. She has conceded at this point it gets cold here. We're making bets if she makes it through the summer. 100 degrees in the shade some days. With a heat index probably 10 degrees of higher than that. She's gonna die. She totally has no concept of hot either. Just before it really got cold here, we had a day where it was 80 degrees with a nice cool breeze, she thought it was hot. Not even close. She is in for a shock.

Back to the weird-ass Texas weather. We have a saying down here, "Don't like the weather, stick around a while. It'll change any minute now." They think it might snow. Which would be the third year in a row, it snowed after the ice storm last year. Which is way weird. It snowed about 10 inches a couple of years ago. The last time we had a snow even close to that was 12 years before that. We might get snow this year, we are all praying not another ice storm. We've almost recovered from the last one. It would be bad if it hit us again so soon. We'll have to see. We are at least more prepared this year. Have supplies at least, that we know from experience we could use. So we're a little better off. We're hoping for the best. The weathermen are being real tentative. They so don't want to be the barer of bad news. Or be wrong, I suppose. I'd like it to snow, just not an ice storm. <whimper>

I'm going to get maudlin here for a minute. I can't find any music I want to listen to at all. I just can't bear much of it yet. I used to listen to something all the time. At least once a day. Now I just can't find anything. Hurts to much. Cheery doesn't work, sad only makes me sadder. See Maudlin. <eye roll> I'm done now. Really am shutting up. My eyes are starting to cross on the page. I'll probably go to bed soon.

11-25-01:(9:44 am CST) You know that thing I said in last night's entry about watching It's a Wonderful Life? Didn't happen. I watched it in the bedroom and was out like right after Joseph told Clarence he was headed Earth bound. I didn't even get to the part where we see George as a little boy. Nope I was snoring by then.

It's a lazy day today. I don't feel like doing a whole hell of a lot. I put up some clothes that have been sitting around waiting to be hung up for days and that's about it. I was to busy to get to them before, what with all the damn cooking I've been doing. I won't bore you with my angst over people really liking my cooking again. It's just a personal distress that I'll get over eventually. I did decide to change out my regular sheets for flannel ones. This week it's supposed to stay in the 40's as a high and the 30's as the low. So it's time, winter's settling in here. This is only the beginning too. So I'm washing the sheets right now. Whoop de do! Your saying, I know. I said it was a boring day.

I did get to wake up and read Omar G's Smallville recap for Hourglass this morning over on Mighty Big TV. It was so damn funny. I was LMAO. This is the slashiest show out there right now. I swear. Even Omar, a straight guy, can see the slash in it. The show has a weekly award we give at the forums there, called the Gayle. That stands for the GAYest Look of the Episode. That's how slashy the show is. We know there will be Gayle every week, we just wonder who will be the winner each week, Clark or Lex. Omar felt Clark and Lex tied in last weeks ep. Personally, I think the pout that Clark gave Lex when he was trying to talk him into driving more defensively was the winner. He pouted like he was Lex's boyfriend trying to get his way in an argument. I swear they are going to have to work so much harder to get me to believe there is even one thing het about this show. Tom Welling (Clark) and Michael Rosenbaum (Lex) are going to have to stop looking at one another's asses if I'm to buy it one bit. They'll have to stop all the flirty looks and the pouting too, for god sakes. You have to fight to see het in the show, seriously. Some shows you really have to look to see the homoeroticism. This one you don't even have to try, it's just there. I love it, for the slash factor alone.<*sigh* & bg> Personally, I hope they keep forgoing the het in favor of so much yummy, yummy slashiness. I'm a true slash slut, what can I say.

11-24-01:(6:28 pm CST) I'm sitting here watching a Stargate SG-1 rerun, waiting for NBC to show 'It's a Wonderful Life'. That's my favorite Christmas movie. I hate how NBC hordes the thing and only shows it a few times a year. I remember when it was in syndication and they'd show it so much between Thanksgiving and Christmas that you'd just be sick of by the time the holiday season was over. It was like turkey, you enjoy the first helping or so of it, but usually get your fill way before it's gone. Now we only get to see it once or twice a year. That movie helped get me into the holiday spirit. I liked seeing it so much, perked me up with holiday cheer. Since NBC got a hold of it it's up to their whim as to when it's shown. I've got it on video, though, so no biggie. I can watch it any time I want anyway. So Ha! to NBC.

Speaking of the holiday spirit. I just spent all day putting up Christmas lights. Started at 8 am and finally finished at 5 pm right before dark. We took a few breaks to go pick up more lights and shit at the store. eat, etc. We live in a neighborhood filled with Winter Wonderland Bastards. These people decorate and I do mean Decorate for the holidays. Brings out the competitive spirit in me. So I feel the need to outdo them or at least match them. So our yard and trees are decked to the hilt with Christmas lights. I didn't plan on decorating this early, but others had started doing it and that competitive thing came brewing up. Plus, my step-dad, who is a truck driver, was in for Thanksgiving so we made him climb up on a ladder to slap up the roof lights. So they got put up today. I usually wait until two or three weeks before Christmas to do it, but the time was right so we went for it.

I am totally exhausted; my feet, legs, and hands ache. I'll probably hit the sack early. After watching one of the all time 'feel good' movies. The decorating was fun, but so tiring. Still it looks good. We have one section on a string of lights that's gone out. We checked every bulb in that area and nothing helped, replaced some broken ones and still nada. So we may have to replace that one string of lights. Might have a short in it. Sorry if this is a boring entry. Just thought I'd ramble for a while. (I started to say that Not much happened today, but that reminded me of the crap fest the X-Files has become so I refrained from that. The first two eps of season 9 were called Nothing much happened today, or some variation there of. Whatever.)

11-23-01:(11:36 pm CST) Well, it's the day after Thanksgiving. It was a pretty good one. No one got into fights at the dinner table and the food preparations went pretty smoothly. Which means we only had one mishap. The first thing of dressing we made had to be tossed. My mom and I are working from a recipe my grandmother came up with like forever ago. Of course, my grandmother has no measurements in this recipe. It's all to taste. Which means it's easy to fuck up. The second pan of it turned out great. Luckily, we made it the night before so we were able to keep it from being a big disaster.

Besides the two pumpkin pies and two pumpkin breads I cooked for dessert. I also made a sweet potatoes thing I had seen on a cooking show on Food TV. I found the recipe on the net and it was pretty easy so I made it. All of it was raved over. I'm becoming quite the little cook. Dammit. I never wanted to know how to cook well. Now I'm starting to cook damn good. I'm making shit from scratch that comes out perfect. I'm well and truly shocked. Shit, who knew?

The whole meal consisted of people going "Mmm...This is really good." It was cooked predominantly by my mom and I so we were happy with the praise.

After dinner I played Monopoly with my step-sister. I've never played with her before. The one thing I learned was, she is the worst Monopoly player I have ever seen. We started out both of us owning a good bit of stuff. Ended up with her mortgaging off all the properties she had and then selling them to me as she got further into debt to me. I ended up owning all the properties when the game was over. She had 64 dollars and I had nearly 8000. She really and truly sucks at it. It was her idea to play until someone ran out of money too. I started buying houses and hotels after a while just for the hell of it. Something to do. I've played Monopoly a few times. I've always thought it was a metaphor for someone's life n ways, especially how they handle finances. My step-dad likes to horde everything and give no one else even a chance to buy anything else, even if it means he has only a small sum of money at any one time. My mom and I like to give everyone a chance and play pretty fairly. My step-sister starts out with a lot and loses it all quickly. That sums us all up pretty good. Weird.

My mom, grandmother, and I went to some After-Thanksgiving sales early this morning. Man, it was a mad house. Wal-Mart here was selling these tv's a pretty cheap price just about everyone had one. I got one of the same tvs last year, mine was going out around that time. Target was selling these cd stereo systems cheap and just about everyone you saw there was hauling one out. I've had one for years so no need to buy one of those. It was really tiring. We left about 5:30 am or so, that's when they started. We ended up buying a pair of sweats for my mom, jeans for my step-dad, and some christmas lights that were cheap. All at one store. We all came back home by about 7:30 am and went back to sleep.

It's seems like a very long couple of days. It was fun, but it's over. This is really the first time I've helped my mom out like this. Freaky, I so do not want to take over these duties one day. May shoot myself if it happens. I have so never wanted to be anything like Suzie Homemaker. No offense, but it's just not me.

By the way, Buffy. I can't believe she and Spike finally did it. Wondered about that, but didn't really expect it. Cool though. I like Buffy/Spike better than she and Angel. Less of an angst factor, plus James Marsters is so damn cute.<g>

By the way, on a list I'm on we have been talking about some of our favorite fics and new fandoms we are getting into. Some one got on the topic of Starsky and Hutch. One of the all time great slash pairings, they are the classics. If you've never seen the show, those guys were so nuts for each other there is no way you could miss the slash chemistry. That's like saying you missed the Starsky's car. Or that the show is about two cops. It's really hard to miss. We got to talking about fics in that fandom. Everyone I have ever talked to has said that Total Eclipse of the Heart by Flamingo is one of the best you will ever come across. Our talking about it on list made someone go check it out. They had nothing, but praise for it. It doesn't matter if you've never seen the show, it is an amazing piece of work. You almost have to hate Flamingo the fic is so good, you just end up loving it and her though. A definite must read in my opinion. It's how fics are supposed to be done. It's huge, novel length, and more than worth the time it takes to read it.

11-20-01:(11:06 pm CST) I've spent the last two nights cooking deserts for Thanksgiving. I've cooked two pumpkin pies and two pumpkin breads from scratch. Both were a first and both came out beautifully. Thank goodness. I was so nervous about them, but I followed the direction and stayed focused. We still have two more days of cooking in store for us. Tomorrow night we're going to cook the turkey and start preparations on anything that needs done. Anything that can help save time on Thanksgiving day. Thursday will be the crunch day, the big cooking day. We always each lunch instead of dinner. Though sometimes in Texas we refer to lunch as dinner. Don't ask me why we just do.

I had two pumpkins that I didn't want to carve around Halloween. I cooked and then froze the flesh a few weeks ago to use for Thanksgiving. I still have several bowls of the stuff in the freezer that I'm going to use at Christmas time. That is what prompted me to try making a the pies and breads from scratch. I just felt adventurous this year. Plus, my cooking skill are getting better. I can kick as on desserts.

Against my better judgement I watched the second ep of XF:TNG. I knew I shouldn't have, I was even more confused over it than the last one. What happened to the aliens? They decide to forget about them? Whatever. I had some small hope that they might make some sense out of it all in the second ep. That hope is lying dead on the floor. I don't even care enough about it anymore to muster up a really good rant. I'm never watching another ep unless I know positively that Krycek will be in it. I might mute that unless NL is talking. I give up on the show.

On to happier shows. Tonight's Buffy. I saw the ep where Amy turned herself into a rat the other day. I started to wonder if they were ever going to remember the poor thing again or if the rat just died quietly off screen and they didn't bother to tell us. I should have know to trust in Joss, unlike some he doesn't forget a lot and tends to tie up loose ends. So Amy is back now in human form. Cool. I so love this show. I swear Joss is trying to take all of the big jump the shark moments and prove that if you do them well the show won't jump. Hell, even Darla's giving birth on Angel the other night was pretty cool. I have been groaning ever since they showed her pregnant. It was just horrid to see. Ok, the first time I saw her with that big preggers belly I screamed like the girl I am. Though at that time I was just getting over laryngitis, so it came out kind of broken and screechy. I screamed none the same. Shuddered every time I thought about it. Still do. I've suspended my disbelief of two vampires having a kid successfully. Even they don't know how it happened, so we're all confused. I'm waiting for the explanation.

11-12-01:(12:40 am CST) Spoiler Alert: The X-Files: The Next Generation. (What I've come to call this new season of the show.) Came on last night. Dear lord what a crap fest that was. <shudder> That was the worst one yet. I'm only predicting bad things for the future. Of which I don't think I'll be watching. I'll just stick to reading the reviews of the show over on Mighty Big TV, at least Jessica the X-Files recapper is funny and will bash the show properly.

That entire ep was this big confusing jumble of incoherence. I've joked about it often, but now I really do think Chris Carter is on crack. That is the only explanation for that abominable mess that was the season 9 premier. What was the writing team thinking? Were they all sitting around smoking weed, that day, thinking this was a really good idea? They had to be high on something to think that made one lick of sense.

Over the past few years I've been known to gripe about the show alot. My mom, who watches it too, hates when I do that. Always asks me why I even bother watching the show. Tonight she was bitching about it right along with me. I think I finally had an answer to her question about why I bitch about it tonight. I remember the first season when they actually had writers on the show who could write. Who were able to weave a really good story. CC, Spotnik, and however many other sycophants he has working for him don't know shit about writing an interesting story. Not one that doesn't have so many plot holes in it that you could drive a truck through each and every one of them. CC is a 'one hit wonder' who just flushed his one hit down the toilet.

Could they have shown Lucy Lawless nekked one more time? Nekkid, for those of you who don't know, is a southern word. While Naked means, "You don't have any clothes." Nekkid means, "You don't have any clothes on and your up to something." That is according to the late Lewis Grizzard, a southern newspaper columnist who was damn funny. He passed away a few years. Lucy was up to alot of things in last night's ep. Most of them Nekkid. I think the entire reason they kept putting her underwater was simply so they could show her without clothes on as much as possible. So what Billy Miles ability is the karate chop of death. Knowle Rohherrrrer (whatever his damn name is) crashes cars and survives in tact. Lucy's big power is to hold her breath a really long time and has that nice kung fu grip for holding her victims under water. Man these replicants sound like bad ideas for action figures. Did they call up Mattel and ask them for their reject pile of action toys? Sheesh.

So Mulder's gone and we're just never going to speak of it again. That's it, huh? No decent explanation as to why Mulder would run off, cleaning out his apartment of everything he owns, never to be heard from again 48 hours after Scully has the baby. With absolutely no explanation as to why? Yeah, I find that in Mulder's characterization. This from a man who they have shown time and again to never run away from anything in his life. I mean they didn't even try. They didn't come up with someone was threatening Scully and the baby unless Mulder got the hell out of Dodge and never showed his face again. Nothing. Nada. Zip. Zilch. He's just gone. Deal with it. How fucking pathetic is that? They are so pissed at DD over at 1013 that they don't even make even some futile attempt of concocting a story as to where Mulder might be. God, they are pathetic schmucks. What is everyone on the writing staff 5 years old now? The sad thing is I expected no less. This is just what I thought they would do. Exactly it. I thought they would do nothing more. I've been watching the show for 8 years, I've caught on. Stopped expecting explanations. They don't come why bother.

You know the one thing I actually could stand this ep was Moronica. Shockingly! Everyone else annoyed the shit out of me. When they stopped her blathering on incessantly about jack shit, I didn't mind her so much. Not enough to stop calling her Moronica or change my opinion of her. I could stand her though. Did you know thanks to that line about how beautiful Scully was in last season's finale enough people thought she was a lesbian that TV Guide asked CC and company if they were writing her as one? There was an article about it on their website. I read it a while back, but don't have the addy. CC and brood said she wasn't. Yeah, right! Just like Clark and Lex on Smallville don't want to throw one another down on the nearest flat surface (vertical or horizontal) and fuck each other into next week. Moronica was so checking out Lucy's ass on more than one occasion. If these writers and producers really want us to think these characters are het they have to stop it with the long meaningful looks and scoping of body parts with members of the same gender.

On the Mighty Big TV forums we've created a special award for Smallville called the Gayle Award. Gayle stands for GAYest Look of the Episode. (Clark won last Tuesday.) I'd say Moronica checking out Lucy's ass would have to win on last night X-files premier.

What was up with The Dread Pirate Wesley (Cary Elwes) last night on the show? Kept pouncing on Moronica, in what I can only describe as blatant sexual harassment in the work place. I don't care if they did have a thing once. It had been two years since they'd seen one another and they had had one phone conversation that morning that lasted under a minute. What was up with him kissing her like that? Not like they had time to catch up. She could have been in a relationship or married for all he knew. I'm guessing the creep had looked in her file, so he might have known she wasn't married. Still, she could have been in a committed relationship. She kept looking like she was trying to figure out how to tell him she's gay now. He turned her off men forever. What with his stalking ways. She looked excruciatingly uncomfortable around him. Like she just wanted him to go away and keep his hands to himself. Talk about oblivious, he couldn't tell that she practically wanted to beat him off with a stick, for the fun of it. Bedsides, he's her boss now. Whole new dynamic. Gets pissed at her at home he might take it out on her at the office. From what we've seen of him I wouldn't doubt he'd do just that. There are rules about those things. Of which, I think only Moronica was remembering. Isn't he a little young to be an AD anyway? He looks about 16. Whatever. That whole thing made about as much sense as anything else did.

What was up with how everyone was treating Doggett tonight? It was like he was a particularly smell piece of poo that they all wanted to scrape off their shoes. He has like no friends now. Is this how poor Mulder was treated at first? No one wanted to talk to him? They all just wanted Doggett to curl up and die from the looks of it. Was it because the writers used him to keep asking 'Where's Mulder?' They felt the need to abuse him since they'd put the dreaded M word in his mouth over and over? They say in a crisis you know who your friends are. Guess that means he doesn't have even one buddy left. Even the Gunmen were acting like total shits towards him. Since when has Mulder given them much more to go on than a name and from there they managed to weave him a fascinating conspiracy surrounding whoever. My mom kept asking just what had Doggett done that was pissing everyone off so much. I had to wonder that too.

First off, he had no evidence to back up his claims that AD Kersh was connected to all of this. I thought he had phone records or something in last season's finale? I could be wrong. Is the man an idiot? (Don't get me wrong. I like Doggett.) I'm totally surprised they don't have him under under suspension pending an investigation for making unsubstantiated claims against an AD. I expected them to fire him any minute. Is like everyone in the FBI, but our intrepid little group of agents in on the conspiracy? Hell, everyone in the military and medical profession too, just for the hell of it. Oh wait, let's not forget the water plants. <gigantic eye roll to beat all eye rolls, I think one of them is stuck in fact>

Skinner. Shit, do I really need to get into that man. Yes, I think I do. Anyone else here think he's the one who might have gotten rid of what was on the video tape? I'm betting his murder of Krycek is on there. I am thankful by the way that Doggett at least brought that up. I thought they might forget that ever happened. Along with everything else. Like Mulder. Skinner spent most of the ep screaming his head off at someone, everyone. When did Doggett call him to come with to the water plant? I didn't see it happen. But then I was lost as a goose way before that scene. So like I know. One minute he's yelling at Doggett, the next trailing along after him to the water plant. That was an about face, now wasn't it. Guess he's being the supportive boyfriend. How the hell did Wesley find out where they were? Only 6 people knew about it from my count. Doggett, Moronica, Skinner, and the Gunmen. Which one called him and told him. Moronica was so pissed at him she wanted nothing to do with him. I doubt she would. Like the Gunmen would. Sort of defeats the purpose for Doggett to. So that leaves Skinhead. Who conveniently hurts his leg so he trails behind Doggett and when Wesley sees him is neither surprised to find him there, nor does he detain him.

You know I've mentioned my theory about Skinner being an abuser. One of my friends said that after tonight's ep they could see that. Never had been able to see my point about that before. They saw it tonight though. I'm not sure what made her decide that. I'm going to have to ask her later what about the ep made her shift her opinion. I've had several people agree with me. Ha!

Scully's baby. Did I call it on the anti-christ thing or what? I saw that one coming. My mom had told me about that scene with the mobile that was spinning on it's own. I gleamed where they might be going with it from there. They've always been playing around with evil where Scully is concerned. Guess that's why so much evil was attracted to her, she was the soon to be mother of the anti-christ. She's even admitting some things up in the scenes for next week. "Something's wrong with my baby." Welcome to Rosemary's life Scully.

So...No Mulder, No Krycek, No Love. I'm so not watching the crap fest that the show has become ever again. I think the X-files might get pushed up to #1 on the Jump the Shark list after tonight's ep. It has jumped so bad, it's out of the water and gasping for it's last breath. Should have ended it when DD left. I'm betting Gillian wishes she'd gone with him. On a list someone mentioned that the Sci-Fi channel had a poll on their site about whether the X-Files should continue of not. 61% of the people said they should pull the plug. That's about the only thing they could do now. Want to bet on it getting canceled? I think viewer ship should drop so after this season it won't make it to number 10. I'd say it might get canceled this season, but I think Fox might hang on until the end of 9 to shoot it dead like the lame horse it's fast become. I don't think a movie is in the future. DD and NL were so smart getting off that sinking ship. CC and accompanying idiots hinted Krycek might be back this season. I so hope NL isn't going to be on it anymore. I hope he knew when to get the hell away from it, like DD did. Yeah, David's laughing his ass of now. Glad he got the hell away from the show, even if that last movie of his did bomb.

So it's lost me as a viewer, my mother, and I know of at least on other person who's no longer going to be watching. I'm betting we aren't the only ones. That thing was so bad. Schools should show first season eps and then the ones from this season as drug prevention. First season - this is your brain not on drugs. Ninth season - this is your brain on crack. See what it does to you kiddies? Makes you think shit like this is actually something good. They'd run screaming from the room. Never touch drugs for the rest of their lives. <snicker> I have a weird sense of humor.

11-10-01:(2:44 am CST) Well, first off. You might notice that the new site is up and running quite nicely. I guess if your reading this then you know that already. The new addy is: http://windged.ma-at.net/slashsluts/ . Again, if your reading my web journal then you know that, but I just like my new addy. I'm so glad to be free of those damn sites that aren't slash friendly. It's a relief to not sit around wondering in the back of my mind whether I'm going to be TOSsed or not. I also had the text within a table for a while there, but I took it out. (You couldn't see he table, I had the borders invisible. It was there though.) It looked cool, but it was hell on me while I was typing the damn entries up. it made the response time from when I typed it in to it appearing on the screen so slow that it was driving me nuts. I made tons of typos, because it was distracting me. Seemed like a chore typing up entries. Wasn't as much fun for me. So the table just had to go. Back to this design which was how it looked originally. So got the mention of the new site addy and new design of this page out of the way. Now, on to other shit.

I'm really damning Joss Whedon to several kinds of hell right now. I spent a couple of weeks moaning every time I thought about the Buffy the Musical episode. The whole title by itself just screams, "This is going to suck the big one. Prepare to watch this show you love Jump the Shark big time." I liked the damn thing though. That' s why I'm damning the man to some eternal suffering. I've got songs from the fucking thing stuck in my head. I've caught myself singing Spike's solo number I don't know how many times. I damn the man every time I catch myself doing it. I even have an urge to watch it again. Especially, for that final moment of the show. If you've seen it, you know what I mean. I swear about as close I come to het shipperdom is the Spike/Buffy pairing. Don't ask me why. I just think James Marsters is cute.

For those of you not familiar with the term Jump the Shark, it's slang for the moment that a show just derails and moves on into sucksville. (Get your dirty little slashy minds out of the gutter. There was no pun intended.) It gets it's name from a scene on Happy Days when Fonzie actually jumped over a shark. For more on Jumping the Shark check out the link to the website above. I swear it's like JW is trying to see how many of those Jump the Shark moments he can do and the show still not suck. I mean he's already covered several of the worst and most prevalent of the JtS moments. They Did it, characters actually having sex, no teasing and taunting (just about everyone on the show has screwed someone). He covered New Kid in Town and Puberty with Dawn. Exit...Stage Left, I've lost count of people who've left the show. Graduation, need I say more, there were two episodes that went by that title. Death, last season's finale and Buffy's mom. Hello. Not to mention the tons of guest stars and extras who've bit the dust over the years. Xander and Anya are getting married, which falls under the I do heading. Now the Musical episode. A friend and I were talking the other day and wondering if next he'd get Ted McGinley to appear on the show. Whenever, that man pops up you just know the end is near for a show. I expect to see him pop up any day now. Speaking of Ted, I think he must have made the same pact with the Devil that John Schneider did so that he'd never age. The man still looks damn good. Gotta be a pact with the devil. No other reason makes sense. There's the premise of an ep for Ted to star in right there. Even if he did bring Ted on, I'm thinking Joss would manage to put a positive spin on it somehow. It's like he's pushing those moments that are the big contenders for Jumping without actually causing the show to. He just skirts the edges of it and never actually does it. Even switshing channels hasn't hurt the show. I still tune in religiously.

Oh, the X-files is number 2 on the list of shows that have jumped. If you go to that page on the JtS site there's a list of reasons for it jumping. The ones that have the most votes are listed. Krycek dying is #5. The Scully/ Mulder kiss and Scully having the baby are 3 & 4. I find that incredibly funny. Speaking of which, 1 day till the season 9 premier. Talk about groaning. I'm so dubious about this season I'm really not sure if I'm going to watch it or not. No Mulder, no Krycek, no love. Not one interesting character left on the show. I don't care how often they show Lucy Lawless scantily clad, that isn't a big lure for me. Every damn preview I've seen of the show, she's in some massive state of undress. Whatever.

What often got me through some of the worst eps was how pretty David Duchovny is. Stand Nick Lea next too him and my brain melted and dripped right out of my ears. (Guess Lucy might do that for some other people.) So no love left on the show for me. They've teased us with taunts of Krycek maybe popping back up this season, but I don't believe anything the people at 1013 say. They always lie like dogs before each new season starts. I'm not expecting that to change. I'll believe Alex baby's back when I see him. Otherwise, no go. I'm not sure I'd enjoy it half as much if Mulder wasn't there to crank up the sexual tension, anyway. No I don't see any between Skinner and sweet baby Lexie. Don't even bring that up to me. I'm so not into Skinner slash it's not even funny. Tried it hated it, stuck with M/K. I admit I do see something between Sk/D, but I think Dogget is to uptight to give in to it. So I still have trouble with it. Even if I think Skinner would be quite happy to let John fuck his sweet little ass.<g> I'm seeing Dogget having a hard time with that. So... I have yet to be corrupted to Skinner slash. Don't try. I'm quite obstinant. I don't budge easily.

By the way, I'm just betting Scully's baby is the anti-christ. They hinted all over the place it might be Mulder's. I cringe at the thought of M/Sc having sex though. Ick! Not even going there. They didn't, I'm not buying it. Besides CC said that it was Mulder's kid flat out, I don't believe anything that dope head says. I firmly believe he's on crack after season 8, especially that bad thing that didn't happen to Alex. Everyone hates the man for that. They nearly beat us to death with the Christ child imagery until I wanted to throw up. What's left, but the kid turning out to be Damien. If I were Scully I'd check the back of the kid's head for a 666 and watch him to make sure his head doesn't start spinning around. If little William is the anti-christ, does that make Scully Rosemary? If I'm right I'm going to be bragging about it all over the place. I hope you realize that.

On one last note. Some of you may know that Jane St. Clair got TOSsed by angelfire. Well, she's found a new home for her site. It's now located at: http://www.ravenswing.com/~mirrorgirl/door.html. I've changed all the links to her fics on my recs pages, those will be reflected in the next side update. If you haven't checked out her writing you should. It's damn good. She writes in the X-Men & Buffy/Angel fandoms mostly. She does work in other fandoms too though. She's a definitely must read for those of you who never have read her work, but might be interested. Her being TOSsed around the same time I was makes me empathize with her. Plus, I just lover her writing. That's about all for now. Gonna spell check this, give it a read through, and see if I can't get it posted.

11-03-01:(12:34 am CST) Well, I've gotten the update done and Ma-at.net has set up my account so any minute now and I going to upload my site to the server. I'm excited about it. This is the first time my site has been stored on a server where I wasn't worried about getting TOSsed because I had slash on it. So the site will be back up in no time at all and I'll be bombarding people's inboxes with a big old crossposting announcing the site move. I'll apologize here in advance. Sorry about the massive crossposting. I was a on a list today and saw a post where someone actually asked what happened to my site, it was gratifying to know that people really were missing it. Thanks.

Been a busy night. We had some pumpkins at Halloween for decoration. I decided not to carve them so I could use them in recipes later. Plus, I just wasn't in the mood to carve them. We bought them from a local grower instead of the supermarket, they were really beautiful. I just couldn't hack into them. Well, not without the intention of using them for food. I roasted them in the oven, puréed them, and then froze them. They were medium sized so I had to cook half a pumpkin at a time. I got alot of meat out of them. Should be able to make lots of yummy treats out of them this year. Roasted the seeds too.

Well, that's about it. Getting the site updated/ready to load and roasting pumpkins sums up my day. Add grocery shopping and lunch with my mom and grandmother to the list and that's about it. Hopefully, I'll have the site up and running in no time. Whew! I'll be glad when I'm done with it. I can relax and not worry about it then.